September 21, 2016

A Moment of Clarity

Since the age of 14 alcohol was always my consoler and my motivator. One morning in September of 1989 I had a moment of clarity. I saw myself as I really was, an alcoholic. That night I attended my first AA meeting. But, things continued to get worse. My overall health was going downhill at an alarming rate. I came to the clinic and eventually did my best to tell the Nurse Practitioner, the truth about my drinking. Finally, she said ‘Enough is enough.’

I had pretty much lost all support by betraying everyone; something had to change. ‘I slept the sleep of the saved,’ as Winston Churchill said, and then I got on my knees and began to ask the God of my understanding to please help me not to drink and the obsession to drink was removed. At about 3 months sober, I bemoaned feeling I was rudderless; at my next appointment I told the Nurse Practitioner how my life lacked purpose. All she said was, ‘Fill out a volunteer application and give it to our Office Manager.’

My first day was spent shredding and shredding. After about 2 months I began to help with other tasks. Even though it’s only for a few hours a week, I feel productive once again. Christ Clinic has given me back my self-esteem. Today my life has purpose. I think I’m getting the better part of the bargain. Most notably, I haven’t found it necessary to drink alcohol for well over 1 year.

– Mike, Christ Clinic Patient & Volunteer